Reflection is not living in the past

Tonight I try and to remember
how I ended up here
try to remember how I wound up in this place so many miles from home
Try to recall the emails, the reasons why, career became the insurance policy
How I see it all now so clearly now, in my tiny apartment house, just me
How we could all close our mouths, to stay wrapped in the Tiffany's
Tonight I sit reading being a grown up for dummies
I seem to remember a time when a blackberry depended on a vine
and the dependence on a blackberry wasn't mine
I can recall when it was so simple, Santa at the flagship store
riding circular escalators, to the restaurant on our favorite floor
Long before the deadlines, running in 4 inch through union square
remembering when i tried to impress
all the people who are no longer there
It isn't about you any more, its about the budget by ten
its not about you and me, its about revisions on life once again
there was a time when i used to play
once upon a time when a apple was fruit
This isn't my dream of boarding school luster
This is the result of kicking ass and running just slightly faster
I know why I am here
and my desert Island is a blue tooth paradise
wired for ultimate communication
Ipod thought, no need to touch
the digital age will be jealous this much
I will think to speak
I will speak when I think
No need for message in the bottle
I am me now in real life
I know how I got here
And I wouldnt trade you on this for anything ever, For you are all that ever matters. You are everything and I would leave everything, for you, without question. You have me, you always have. I would give my life, at any time, to save yours. You are the love of my life. You are my life.